你離開的200天

So, a fire has brought you away for an exact 200days. And you have left me..for 815 days. Wow. Time really flies. I don't know what to write exactly, but I just feel like dropping by, telling some feelings of mine. 

It seems like I'm getting into dates more, like I'm much aware of some numbers..like 818? Yah. I don't why but I just do. 

Hey you, up there, dear Spencer Tan Chee Phang, dear angel, how are you doing. I'll try to hold on to that promise, I'll try.. 

Still, I seek for your forgiveness. Sorry that you loved me. Perhaps you could have not wasted your two years of your life with me. You could have deserved better life without me... :'( 

I'm not really smiling.