痛

这是糟糕的一个年头，可却有着美好时光在里头，

好坏参半，我无从否认，这一年是有多姿多彩。

失去你失去爱情失去了所有回忆，

我多期望身边有护我一生的人。

没心部落，我只懂我很失落。

没心情写太多，我懂我写不出了。

就这样，我需要时间。

I am scared

Can somebody tell me why must shit happen one after another. Please. Don't tell me you Almighty can't do these. Please build my faith again towards you. I wish to believe your ability O Lord. You have taken him and his daddy away. NO MORE PLEASE. NO MORE PEOPLE I LOVE THAT YOU CAN TAKE AWAY PLEASE.

Take me away instead, please. If you ever need anyone just pick me. Just take me away. Let all of them live longer than me. Please. I beg you.

I am scared. Real scared.. Please, stay healthy. I love you.. 

鼻酸

遇见了一个人，工作认识的，在我工作时。
原来他也认识你的，他也原来懂我是谁，
看见了我他过来打了个招呼，
问我说 诶你不是XXX的XXX吗？
我说，哦你认识他啊，
他说嗯，更懂你离开了，
问我说怎么两个分手了，
因为看见报导放着你女朋友的照片，
说奇怪怎么看都不像我，
当然啊，都分手了怎么能像我呢。
我苦笑了，可得客客气气地回答，
心都开始揪着痛了，
有时候好佩服自己忍痛的能力，真的。

喜欢打字时不停地HAHAHAHHAHA不然就哈哈哈，
像个傻婆在到处笑也其实不懂我在真的笑或是怎样。

刚刚又吞了胃痛药，怎么我一直忘了吃。
忘了过后懒了，就这样有一天。

可今天挺开心的说，
朋友说我脸比较尖了，瘦了。
是啊，圆鼓鼓的我终于能瘦回一些了。

也许值得开心。

今天和你妈妈聊了我的爱情观，
其实我也不懂自己想什么，
自己到底要什么，
懂啊，你要我开开心心的我懂，
我有很努力这一年多两年来你一定有看到的不是吗。
你也应该懂我尽力了，不是吗。

真的勉强不来，
你不再喜欢我，我勉强不来，
就像你的好朋友，就算他多喜欢，真的也勉强不来。
我不懂怎么去让他了解，
觉得对不起可又真的我不能心软。

爱够了，我好累好疲惫。
我想安安静静地过生活，让我继续缅怀你也好，
放不下你也罢，
让我静静地活着再慢慢病死老死都行。
当然想要个踏实的肩膀靠着，
可真的又好累，不敢也不知如何再往外面的世界踏足。

别再骂我了，对不起。

The 35th day

I have once prayed 2013 to be a good one, at least a better one even though I did not make it to a count down and I had the worst ending for the 2012. I thought it had gone better ever since I knew these new friends in Singapore, like Seow Hung, Hui Hui, Tong, Jie Xiang, Mayer, Zhi Huan, Lao Da, especially, they really pulled me away from nightmares. I start to know what life is about after a year of hardship I went through. I feel glad, because I still have my sisters-since-young who cared so much about me like lingirl, chyi, leesin, yan, and jie, who never failed to try cheering me up with whatever they can do to. I should have appreciated these.

But shit never choose to stop happens. Look at where are you now, not even in the crowd, and there's no more way that I can see you again.. Maybe, during the day of judgement, maybe..

WHERE ART THOU.

你好吗？

我好像一个失了忆的女人，
开始慢慢记回过往的回忆，
头疼地突然记起，
心也日愈感觉疼痛，
可是为了不想忘记，
只能拼命地把他们打出来，
就因为我不想错过你的任何一个小回忆。

大大小小，
所有所有，
真的，
我好想念。
日子难过日子过，
我看着一切切，
我害怕死亡，真的。

别再这样了。
每个人都好好活着可以吗。
我真的快崩溃了。

在飞机里若要能好好过只能这样。

你呀你，我真的不懂怎么处置你。

梦见关于你的，其实大概大概都忘了，

只能靠着当时一清醒写下的维特，

来试图想起当初梦见你的起与落。

记得清楚的，是你变得，好看了。

一年多没见，真的你看起来终于更稳重了。

好吗你？想你，真的好想你。

我想责怪自己为什么每当一想起你时的那股心疼，

一直一直想，结果一直一直痛。

二姨她，我好希望她没事，希望她健健康康的，能保护她吗？

我不懂还能顶着多少次看着爱的人们离开我，

我曾经那么天真的以为，我真的是被上天庇佑的女孩，

有过两个曾经那么爱我的男孩，尤其是你。

除了游戏游戏游戏不说，你真的其实很疼我，只是我领悟得慢了好慢好慢了。

结果我现在才明白，我不是被保佑的，我是来受罚的，

也许是因为我干了无可饶恕的罪，主耶稣基督才会这样来惩罚我，

让我看着身边人的生老病死。

想想当时候的你我，我外公病重入院了，

你是多么的替我着急，陪着我去搭巴士，

结果发生了不愉快的事，我在半途被放下车，

让我在高速公路上走着去车费站。

哽咽着地告诉你以后，你好生气好生气的，我一回来下巴士，

你就带着我就气冲冲去找他们，只怕你会控制不了的我，拼命地拉着你，

结果必需比你凶地责问讽刺着他们为何会干出这种事来，

我们俩最后还是得不到什么满意的答复，去了第二次，还是一样。

那时起，你就让我从新山上车，一定陪伴我到车站，等我车开了以后你再离开。

假如，

我能更早带你见我父母家人，我们的感情是否会更加坚固？

更不会到最后这样输给了时间你朋友及我家人。

你和我的多数家人，其实都有碰面的机会，

我公公婆婆爸爸妈妈叔叔婶婶，对不起，让你当初只能窥望他们，

当时的自己有着残忍的过往，只觉得一切必需妥妥当当，一点差错都不能有，

只是没想到，结果还是错了。

他们其实也窥望过你，

他们其实说没再反对我交往，

他们其实告诉我有你照顾我他们好放心，

可是他们从来没说，我也就从来都不懂，只能一直这样与你爱着活着，

知道最后分手了，说这些也许算是你的解脱。

我不懂自己可以责怪谁，除了我自己。

我错了，真的太多太多遗憾，我好希望，能再来一次。

这飞机好颠簸，摇晃得好厉害，

在飞机里这样敲打着键盘，我心疼得好厉害。

讨厌在一个人的时候，一定不由自主地想起你，

还有我们的过往，和我还温存的回忆。

原来我们的回忆其实有更多更多，只是日子久了，真的慢慢地不记得了，

别人提起，我才想起，要不然，那些回忆在心坎里，也许一辈子也挖掘不出来。

有回忆，其实偶尔很不错，

不用我去诉说你我，有着和你在一起的朋友，

都能告诉我你曾经如何爱我，

我又如何不懂怎么珍惜，结果一直错下去。

为什么身边的人都这样

担心，很很很担心，

我不想任何人再离开我的世界。

家里人病情告急了，

听着说医生也束手无策，我甚感心寒。

为什么一波未平一波又起。

把头发剪得短了，烦恼丝本该离开我，

怎们烦恼丝的灵魂好像还附在剩余头发上，

一点也没少掉。

很害怕，很无助，我无能地不懂能分担些什么。

让每个人好好活着不行吗，

为什么这样一个个考验，有完没完呢。

我拿不出信心，我拿不出勇气面对死亡。

是不是如果我选择离开身边所有我关心的关心我的，

我就不用面对这些？

孤独也许没那么不好，

至少不用一次次去经历这些幸福以后再残忍地被夺走。

真的很迷惘，不懂我还能怎么乐观地想。

因缘具足，生死皆自在。

也许是的，也许说的正确。

可是一个人从开始到结束都孤独着，

真的比幸福一千一万倍以后一切才被夺走来的好。

不懂，很很很乱。

今天十二月十七日

一个月了，就这样一个月了。
彻夜难眠，心情根本就无法很好，
一想起，心情就沉入谷底。

这个世界有一种孤独，别人永远不懂。

属于我们的盒子，爸爸终于将他从橱上扛了下来，
我有着不一样的感动，感动着爸爸做的，
可倔强的我，还是选择不言不语，
很坏很倔，可我不懂可以怎么做。
就发脾气发了整个晚上，实在不应该。
和妹妹吵了一架，就这样我辛苦了，
全家人也陪我折腾了。

我不懂，真的不懂为什么那么莫名奇妙，
为什么心情突然的下沉，到我真的不知如何是好。

早上醒来，我一直能直视的橱上那箱盒，
突然间不见了，我顿时吓醒了，
第一个感觉，会不会是爸爸生气了丢了，
结果发现，它其实在客房，好好地摆在那里。

我松了一口气。

慢慢地靠近它，我好紧张，真的心跳好快。
真的，我不懂自己为什么需要这样子。

不哭了，不哭了。
不懂为何再也无法哭泣了，
就算伤心心疼心碎，我就是一副强女人样，
你说过你不喜欢女强人，而我偏偏越变越这么一个样。

对不起啊，真的。
你离开我多久了，怎么这些日子里就是无法抹掉你。
为什么占据了心中越来越大的位置，
让我容不下其他的人，为什么。

我昏沉沉昏沉沉地睡了整天，
不舒服就是不舒服，怎么办。
一天内感觉特别累，很累很疲惫的那种。
到了旁晚，好不容易，终于较清醒了，
就这样，迟了部落，一切都迟了。

我想你了，真的。

没人明白，那就算了。讲不明白，也就算了。

就到此为止吧

我也受够了这些

好过，好过，好难过

笑了是笑了，可苦了却哭了，而累了就泪了。

今天乐了一整天，好好的一个心情，
原本我还真的很爱这一天这么样的一个庇护着我，
因为根本就是这样奢侈兼无忧无虑的生活，
让我的灰色天空增添了一丝丝的红橙黄绿蓝靛紫，
可一踏进家门，想到的又是同一个你，
苦的还是自己，不能睡就是不能睡，
撑了撑了撑了，第二天就成了熊猫妹。

鹏鹏鹏鹏鹏。

能每天每时每刻都不需要想到你吗？
想到你就只有哗然的心疼心痛，
我无能为力也无法自拔只能眼睁睁看着自己折腾自己。

这个女人好累好累，只能一直让物质来麻痹自己，
那样一个日子还有多久多久才称得上是个好日子？
我控制不了，懂不了，明白不了。

只能一味接受你遗留下来我一辈子的惩罚，
也只能唉声叹气却力不从心地接受命运的安排。
那些日子，是苦涩的，是酸溜溜的，是咸嗒嗒的。
也许我真的只能这样了，这样在苦日子中苦中作乐。

今天尽吃了好多好多的甜食，
也许有空余时间再上传吧，我好累，
这样麻痹自己其实真的真的不是普通的累。

是啊，
我十分非常真的48害怕自己难过，
可让我更虚脱的，是我控制不了自己打架的脑袋，
我也想让自己不要那么难过，
除了狂吃甜食我不懂还有什么出路可征服。

一样地给自己上了好多堂关于你的课，
补着习，都是教诲教育着陈智鹏回忆录，
教着我如何记得你记得爱记得回忆，
再让着本能一生受用，
结果律齐，就这样忘了忘记。
上课时也说了，要对自己懊悔的人事物负责任，
结果律齐，就着样甘心受罚一辈子了。

可是，真的，在这爱情的道路上，
我们都走偏了，不是不爱了，而是不对时日了，
结果跌下山崖，

就那一失足成千古恨，再回头，已是不可能。


晚安。

The 28th day

It's been a month. Hi how are you..up there? Doing fine? I know you will be. This week is rather peace for me regardless my mood my mind my emotion. I have been controlling really well. Time heals although not perfectly. Whenever I miss you too much, I Dayre, and hence made up the reason why don't I blog so often over here. Maybe some platform is way better to utter my feelings. Escapism is needed and thus, I am everywhere blogging, as long as I find myself comfy, as long as I don't cry, as long as I don't feel too much pain.

Some friends asked about you. I told them, but the heart is really aching. I masked myself up and that doesn't really seem to work well. I feel so much suffocated when it comes to thinking of you. I miss you even more, ever since the day we broke off, more and even more, day by day.. I really don't know how long this will last. You never seem to disappear from my mind, since the break up, even since the day we first met.. How could you be so influential? I really don't know.

I said this, but I think I'm saying it again..

There are people who discussed about us, like literally asking me wtf am I doing to still linger around the past and not moving on still, even after a year plus, and I don't even look like I will do few years later.

Perhaps I can only answer you doubt this way..
ONLY IF I know the reason why.. You think I don't wish to get rid of these? I simply can't.

It's been a year going two. I don't know how to make some people understand this, maybe they just won't. Sometimes, it's because they never tried to love someone this much before. I don't blame, but don't provoke my rights to these.

Tormenting moments and I've bold myself to try serving myself a better life. Although I am suffering, I promise myself that everyday, I will mask myself up facing the world. No more Facebook saddist posts, neither detailed blogposts, nor frequent instagram posts, lesser tweets, sometimes Dayre.

I.. have came to a point where I realised that I don't actually have to please everyone. I will really go mad if I don't have any platform to free myself. I just do not wish to trigger sadness when seeing all him-related posts, and that's why I have been quite reluctant to share my blogpost but at the same time I really do not wish to privatise my blog, due to some very reason, forgive me, but just..

I don't know
I don't know
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I don't know

I REALLY DON'T KNOW.

I'm not feeling less pain than anyone he cared. At some point it's really equally or worse. How should I cure the heart break. I've been a heart breaker, breaking others' and being broke by others. Tell me about it..

I have been eating a lot recently. Congrats, for I've gained weight.

xoxo.

晚安

知道你现在没在恋爱，整年不见以后，

不懂你实在在哪儿，一切真的都埋葬土里了吗？

你在干嘛？

你在哪儿？

以往，能给自己答案，

说，噢你在陪陪女朋友讲电话，

说，噢你在辛苦却不亦乐乎地锻炼着，

说，噢你在哪里哪里庆祝着什么重要的日子，

说，噢你在睡着觉还是很累了就很沉很沉的那一种，

结果这次，永远在睡着了。

鹏，

我听过睡美人，

没听过能有睡男人呢，

要相信这是个现实的世界啊鹏，

根本不会有童话故事出现的好不好。

起来告诉身边你爱他们他们也爱你的好人们，

说这是迟来的愚人节惊喜吧，行吗？

现在，问着你在哪儿你在干什么，

我自认答不上嘴，只能靠着想像力，

把你推崇最美好的地方，让心灵好过些，

可你真的在哪里，也许真的只有我们再遇见了，

我才会懂得吧。

会再见面吗？

那个世界存在吗？

生活是都一样美好吗？

如果痴信能让你去到更好的地方，

我不介意幻想坚信信奉你真的好。

写写泄泄

不懂如何让自己入眠，
很累，很疲惫，可就是哄不了自己入睡。
写写泄泄，也许会比较舒服？

我其实不懂。

其实算了数学了，
我们的际遇还不足一生里的百分之五，
理智上，事实上，微不足道，
可你影响自己的，将是一生里的百分之八十，
理智上，事实上，你是生命里最长久的风景。

我真的不懂如何说服自己，
不由自主地心疼，
伤，的确伤得很，可我无能为力。

累了泪了，
每天重复着，也不知道还会多久。

鼻子酸溜溜的，
泪总爱打转的，
一直一直必需仰起头，
一直一直必需扬起嘴角，
然后挂上那很不愿意的假开心。

你很棒，
你很强，
你很厉害，
你真的无话可说，
就这样子，
就让所有爱你的人，
天天得念着你想着你，
你得瑟了吧。

真的，
窝在你和我曾经共用的外套里，
我想了好多好多，
凝望着衣柜上的那箱回忆，
我至今不敢拿下来看，
不懂自己害怕什么，
就是拿不起那一个勇气。

画着画着，
就只因为人家说画画能疗伤，
现在真的在画着了，
怕忘了你的脸吶，真的。

一个重锤锤我吧，
让我失忆好不好。

痛苦难堪，
让我忘了你吧好不好。

The 21st day.

I attended sabbath service yesterday. I attended church but I did not partake the holy communion. I was never prepared, even up till now, perhaps I don't deserve His eternal life. All I think about is you you you and only you. Listening to sermons made me grieve. 

Sundays are never good days ever after since you left. It pains me when I have to think all about what happened. During the whole sermon I was blaming the Lord Jesus. I blamed him for what he took away from me forever. I blamed Him for what has happened. Blamed for the past one and a half hour sermons in the afternoon, blamed him during my divine work in the morning at the Pengkalan Hulu while I listened to sermon. I hold all tears and I thought I managed to, until...

Until then when I prayed again. I prayed and I cried out loud all of sudden. Like a drama like that but it just happened. I felt Lord Jesus I felt God. He made me cry and I kept hearing what he wanted to tell me. He told me that he really arranged all these, He told me that being human I shouldn't be crying like that and He told me to behave. I heard him like whispering and all I did was just crying and crying during my prayer. Hard to believe that I actually heard Him, but it really happened. I couldn't stop crying but I calmed down real lots. Ups and downs, and I could only think back of what he told, to comfort my wavy soul every seconds when I reminisce again the unhappy moments.. 

It's already the 21st day since you left the world. 

Be good.

Now then I'm sure that there's really God to take care every of us. 

So please be good.

I will have to be good too. 

I miss you.

For a trip, to go home.

I'm finally home. Finally and really finally, I got to cry my lungs out. I attended church service after so long. I knew I could feel my own pain for real but at the same time I understand that I must be standing on my feet, be tough than anyone else. I have the rights to feel upset, but I can never have the rights to cry. I'm sorry darling, that I just did what you dislike the most. Heart is pain, and hands are shivering. You shouldn't be leaving. I do not know how should I accept the very fact especially I have not seen u for the past one year. Tell me how should I feel and how should I bahave. 

In my prayers there's only you and daddy and mummy and jiejie. I wish you and daddy have each other accompanied in ur journey to be at Papa in Heaven's side, and mummy and jiejie could really put the two of you down, and lead the life much better each and every day. I'm so sure that The Almighty Papa in Heaven is listening, I could feel Him with me in my prayer, I know and I'm sure, that He loves every of us. He might have arranged obstacles for us, but He will still lead us to a better way in life. 

Perhaps.. I should put it this way.. 

We human are created by Him. 

We were staying at a far away place.

We came to this world as our journey our trip. 

We came to learn.

We came to shape ourselves for a better spiritual life.

We come and we go..

Human life is just part of our trip. When we are done traveling, yes we need to go home. Or some are here to learn to study, to come for school and to attend lessons. When we are done with our trip, we have to go home, going back to His arms. When we are done schooling, yes He will come to fetch us home. In the end, His intention is nothing more than making us His good children. 

I do not know if I will feel better after having thought things this way. During my prayer just now, I feel God. I feel Him comforting me and that's the reason He made these coming to my mind. Perhaps He's right. He's the Almighty. He has his purpose in deciding our destiny..

I was crying throughout the prayer and that was awful. I have not cried this hard for so long. Life is miserable, but you learnt life haven't you darling. We are still learning. That's why we are still here..

Time forgets..perhaps..

又来了又来了

终于，

那么多事发生以后，我终于能回家了。

终于有种能休息的感觉，

能回家看看收在家里你留下的一切，

也许能在家里，真正的大哭一场。

压抑得我不懂如何哭泣才对，很累很烦，

眼眶湿湿的可是就是哭不出，真的很苦。

每天在家，怕看着天花板发呆，

就尽力地在干无聊事，

把房间弄得超级乱了然后看着它们，

一直灌着自己说说该怎么去整理，

可又迟迟不肯动手，

就这样，一直就这样。

还是很心疼，对你还是很有感觉，

不管已经过了多少个一百天了。

姐姐问我，若直到现在我们还在一起，

你也一样发生了这件事，

我会怎么样？

我坦白地告诉姐姐，我会更伤心，

毕竟如果能在一起三年半的话，

真的不是开玩笑地说，我一定是好爱你。

这样子回答，我不懂真不真，

只觉得现在已经快歇斯底里了。

挂着笑脸四处迎人，

有谁看透了我，能借我肩膀靠着哀嚎？

真的，不好受。

朋友谢谢你

嗨，朋友，
我终于看见你部落格写的一切话，
还有你，
更是谢谢你们默默地关怀着这不自爱的女人。
我完完全全懂了你们的爱，
更是谢谢你的所有的关怀。

是啊，
他和他爸爸的离开，
的确是四个女人一生中最难熬的一个日子。

希望全瓦，
期盼全灭，
一百万个不愿意期望那只是他好玩的恶作剧。
心如刀割更是百般不舍，
可真的无能为力。

心在淌血，就算过了已经6个100天。
都快两年了，没见面都一年多了，
可是再见，却只剩冷冰冰且烧焦的他，
躺着，被遮着。

拼死拼活，律齐会好好活着，会学着长大，
会活着有意义地完成他没能完成的活着使命。

读书毕业工作邂逅恋爱结婚生子，再慢慢老死。

能做的，除了依然爱他，很爱很爱，
最后只能收在心底，
能做的，也只有这些了。

只能让时间，
把这毒药变成适当的解药。

有一句话

就放下好不好，
真的，别再让身边的人和你一起痛苦了。

学习带着伤痛过生活，
好不好？

First paper done, yay.

I have been procrastinating for the entire day on Sunday yesterday. I told myself to study, to do revision, to prepare for my paper today but to no avail. I was in bad mood yesterday, even though I am real afraid of the mock test, but I just can't be bothered.

Ahh.

Maybe simply procrastinating, I was playing handphone online game yesterday. Nice game though.

Yar this is the one. Rhythm Master. I don't know if it's available on Android, but Apps Store has it. Just sign in using your weChat or QQ account! 

Ya right, from a beginner level like a dumbo, in a day time I've gone up level in such short time, you can imagine how much have I been indulging in this game.

Let's talk about something happier. I managed to answer the question, and am now a relax baby. No stress no nothing. Yay. I had prata too. Vegetarian life is really challenging, but I will survive it, for whoever's sake.

Remember I mentioned a guy whom I went to a commissioning ball with? Remember I told before I had crush on someone? Yes I did. He started learning violin, an instrument that I always wanted to learn after piano but to no avail. He can play keyboard too. However, too bad, after these thing happened, I received no messages from him, at all. Although I understand clearly that we won't be sparking in any time, due to what has just happened, due to what I think that won't let us spark anymore. Maybe he's never the right person at correct timing? Or this is not the correct timing?

I admit that I fell for him. I also know that I can never get him into any of the trouble I've been facing all while. Too much for him, I know. I'm way too complicated for him, I knew that. And I, ya, I... shouldn't be in any relationship for now. There's still someone occupying the very space in my heart. I do not know how much space could I give for the next Mr. Right.

Let destiny lead my way perhaps.


Xoxo.

多事之秋

少于十二小时就要考试了，
律齐怎么就那么没心思读书了呢？
到底在念着什么 ，
不，不懂自己念着什么，
不想说中它，害怕自己真的也许又会泪崩。

连佛脚都不想抱，
就这样颓废了整个星期日。

想着说，
自己是否是幸福的，
至少在你有生之年的最后第几个年日里，
我幸运地，能有你路过我生命中，
停留不久，却带给我永恒的回忆。
你说，那是好还是不好？

想说，谢谢你在我生命里逗留过。

安慰人的话，
让所有人放心的话，
说的头头是道，说的好潇洒。
劝诫人的确说的容易，
说服自己吗？
却永远像个不可能的任务，
却又不由自己地必需当个生还者，
一直告诫自己，
好好活着，真的好好活着。

很累，休息多久，都一样好累。
看着你妈妈姐姐在支撑着，
我恨自己无法分担痛苦，
我永远只能劝说，
永远只能尽量相伴，
希望她们别一直记起一切切不开心。

若能当个小丑，该多好。
别人永远看不见小丑的悲哀，
可小丑永远是画着笑脸对人的。
能带给身边人欢乐，我何乐而不为？
真的希望她们真的开开心心的，
比我更努力地把你放下，
鹏，你就帮帮忙好不好，
让她们无忧地度日好不好？

看见身边人痛苦，我真的很难受。
一直这样地拖着拖着什么都不想做，
我受够颓废了，给我些勇气站起来发奋图强行不行？

看了一集电视剧，叫 倾城绝恋，
那一集，又是大火，死了一人，
我心当时又痛了，
想着你临走前一切有可能的痛楚，
我不懂得怎么不心疼。

Paul Walker 也走了，
又是车祸后的大火带走他的，
是吗？那里缺帅哥好人是不是？
怎么这些日子成了多事之秋？

好了累了又泪了。
睡吧，
或着，
读书吧。

The 14th Day

Hi,

It's the 1st December 2013, time flies, and how do you do.
Everyone will be fine. Everyone, because, time forgets!

xoxo.