28th October 2012
We last seen each other on your birthday celebration at the chalet.
You and I were in the room, I said I'd let you go for her.
You wiped off my tears, asked me to be tough.
And you thanked me to be in your life.
Today, my turn to say this, that dear Spencer Tan Chee Phang,
thanks for having me.
I should be grateful,
because at least I had you for a year and a half more in my life.
I continued to cried, you tried to cheer me up,
We took selfie for one last time,
We had our last hug.
17th November 2013
She never thought that she will never be able to see you again.
This silly girl finally made a big step out to go for a trip in Korea,
but on Day two, everything was stumbled up as if she has never changed.
0400-0500 You were gone forever,
0600 hint #1 strikes when she jumped up from sleep all of sudden,
but she was clueless, she still didn't know.
1000-1700 she was enjoying her day2 trip in Nami Island, South Korea.
She was riding a bike, hint #2 strikes when her tears dropped without reasons.
She still thought it was just normal, she chose to not care.
1800 she realised everyone was spamming her inbox messages,
she sensed something wrong,
she found out, her heart ached badly, she cried out loud.
She changed her flight and she came home with the soonest tickets available.
She still failed to see him for one last time.
FOREVER.
18th Novermber 2013 - 17th November 2014
She fell again and again. Too much things at one go.
She did so much and tried so hard to survive.
Life is being a roller coaster to her, ups and downs,
nevertheless she is thankful because everything is getting better everyday.
Her memory loves him, it asks about him all the time.
She is better when she only feels the pain when important dates near.
As usual she is sensitive with numbers and dates,
but better when she does not feel it all the time like she used to anymore.
She's much cheerful, she learned to be optimistic,
she also learned that he wants her to be brave and tough,
like how he has told her for the one last time in 27th October 2012.
He wants her to be strong, and dear STCP,
SHE IS.
17th November 2015
Her life is much better, she learned to live better without you,
but still with a space meant for you.
She still misses you, but she doesn't let life cripples her anymore.
She finally learns to smile genuinely,
and she doesn't feel pain anymore,
because she knows better that what you want in her.
She is doing it better and,
EVEN BETTER.
17th November 2016
17th November 2017
17th November 2018
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Perhaps she takes time to learn growing up,
but she will still love you,
but she will be keeping you inside her heart forever.
No more mourning about the past,
and she wants to meet her Mr. Right,
because she can finally live happily ever after.
You will be attending her wedding,
bless her with her soul mate,
and hand her to him.
SHE WISHES.
"Life goes on,"
- Spencer Tan Chee Phang
Goodnight.
Hugs.
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