I am scared

Can somebody tell me why must shit happen one after another. Please. Don't tell me you Almighty can't do these. Please build my faith again towards you. I wish to believe your ability O Lord. You have taken him and his daddy away. NO MORE PLEASE. NO MORE PEOPLE I LOVE THAT YOU CAN TAKE AWAY PLEASE.

Take me away instead, please. If you ever need anyone just pick me. Just take me away. Let all of them live longer than me. Please. I beg you.

I am scared. Real scared.. Please, stay healthy. I love you..